snippits..

at work...
"wouldn't have been suck if it rained?"

at school...
"omg, skittles are so fattening! i had a twizzler..."


my exciting life.

...just...

the view from my office:




my window washer: (but i didn't take a picture of him; just of his crate thingie coming down. i didn't want to be responsible for him injuring himself for my amusement)


a peacock i ran into at target:



like mother, like daughter.. or like daughter, like mother?


whenever jae has a weird expression on her face, it's her mouth. ALWAYS.. this is just one example (kekeke~ and notice the others.. this was not posed.)


missing eugene~~ of course in our natural habitat: nrb


me, tigger, and lila:


my first attempt at a holiday card with the new items i purchased over the wkend. i better get better and make many and sell them because i spent a ridiculous amount of money for this crap (don't laugh!)


this man is so hot and so talented:


but my heart belongs to this man: (taken in chicago)




kekekekekekeke~

just another boring update...

chris tomlin, as always, was amazing. i think he gets better every time.. x)

last week i experienced what it means to be working "in the real world." basically, if you make a mistake, it will wipe out all good things that you have done thus far. even though they tell you that they will be understanding, they won't. no matter what, it's the fault of the person lowest in the hierarchy (me, lowly law clerk awaiting bar results). it's my responsibility to learn...even if it was never mentioned to me before.

it was one of those weeks, you know? with that stupid ppr, and then getting into all kinds of trouble at work. xP but thankfully, i was able to finish out the week just relaxing (although i shouldn't have) with friends and family.

heaven called me while i was at work on friday.. twice. once to tell me that she wanted to watch finding nemo. when i told her to ask my dad to show her bug's life, she'd forgotten the title, so she called me back. -__-;; yea, it was cute the first time..

and, just a typical text convo btwn me and kevin:
me: No coffee in my office can you believe that? :( i mean none that is made. I could make it myself i guess..
kangssi: Crazy ppl. Coffee should always be made and ready.
me: I knew i loved you for a reason. :)


tee hee, i'll leave you with that grossness~

all i want are stamps! i want lots of stamps! and lots of ink, and lots of paper, and lots of stencils, and watercolor pencils and, and, and, and...

i just want things.

*sigh*

done..


that was the worst paper i've ever turned in. xP

scratch that, second worst. my worst paper was the one for CRP 113 or something..? where i had to pretend that i read a book i didn't even own and relate to one of the characters, and then create an NGO without any clue as to how they worked.




my computer keeps shutting off! it'll get this blue screen that i can't read and then it'll start over. i donno what's going on, but isn't it great that i just passed the one year mark?? x( i can't afford another one! and now i don't even own a desktop.

booooooo!

...still hating myself....

*sigh*

OMG!!

please tell me that this is the biggest cockroach you've ever seen!!???!?!?!


that thing was crawling up our dining wall!!! omg, i'm so grossed out, i feel all itchy! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

thank goodness i didn't throw away the bug jar! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~!!! i can't even put my feet down on the floor right now.. i just want to jump into my bed and not get up..

.. but alas, i have a stupid paper to write!!

God loves me!

..i pulled an all-nighter yesterday for a paper that i will be pulling another all-nighter for tonight.

anyway, i had work today, so i got to work before 8 and was planning to leave early. BUT i found out that there was a meeting at 3pm, which meant i would NOT be able to leave early.

my partner came into check up on me and i told him that i "wasn't 100%." he took one look at me and was was like, "are you gonna make it til 3?" and i told him i would try.

he told me maybe it'd be better to go home, and try to come back at 3. so i immediately took him up on that offer, cuz i literally almost fell out of my chair that morning.. i was so out of it. i wasn't sleepy, but i was really tired.

i got home, and went to bed. but i couldn't quite sleep deeply cuz i was afraid i wouldn't hear my alarm if i went to sleep deeply.. i woke up at 12:30 to my alarm..

...and a missed call! from my office! telling me that the meeting was cancelled! after i heard that i just crashed and woke up at 4:30 pm.

and since then.. i've done.. nothing.

*sigh*

i hate myself.

everyone congratulate kevin and vergil~ they both finished the marathon yesterday.

today they are both paying for their foolish choice. x)

i didn't know that i got first dibs on tickets cuz i'm an amex card holder. kevin told me.

so now i'm going to watch wicked for my birthday, woo hoo~

so apparently i have an 8 ticket limit. if anyone wants me to buy (and then pay me back) wicked tickets at the pantages theatre, speak now or forever hold your peace. just don't go the same day i'm going (mar. 3) that's a special date for me and kevin. hee hee~

kevin got kicked out of the last basketball game of the season. -__-;;

his team went on to win the semi-championship, but because of his tech foul, he will not be allowed to play in the championship game.. even though he probably wouldn't have played because the championship game is the same day as his marathon.

it's kinda funny now, haha~ but yea, both kevin and the other guy felt really bad.. it is a church basketball league after all.

this wkend, i learned i do not like being drunk. and i've changed from crying, weepy, unhappy, puking, not-remember-half-the-night drunk to even louder than usual, even crazier than usual, puking, not-remember-half-the-night drunk. -__-;; i don't like either outcome. i hate not being in control. xP

anyways.. i skipped class to do my research. so far, i've done my laundry, bought air freshener (cuz there's a weird smell when we enter the apt.. i hate it), and.. that's about it.

yep. i'm always this productive.

oh me of little faith..

i had another gawi (scissors) experience last night. this time, i woke up with a start in my heart.. kinda like when you get scared and your heart jumps into your throat? then all of a sudden, i felt pressure on top of me (i was on my side), like someone was leaning their body weight on me. i kinda envisioned some kind of demonic looking thing in my head, but i don't think i actually saw anything. then it felt like the whole area just where i was sleeping was shaking up and down (not side to side). it would stop, then i'd hear a growl in my ear. then it'd started all over again: shake. stop. growl. shake. stop. growl. again and again. i started praying as i usually do, knowing that it would eventually stop, and it did.. or so i thought.. it started up again! so at this point, i'm mentally crying and screaming "Jesus, I need you! Jesus, I need you!" and the most disturbing thing of all was that during that second bout, i doubted that He would save me...

when it finally stopped, i grabbed my Bible and clung to it. i read a chapter of Job, but it didn't really do much to calm me. i slept with my light on.

it's been a long time since i've had one of those, and even longer since i was actually scared after one. i used to get them so often, it just became one of those things i accepted as being part of my nightly rest. i remember when i used to get them nightly, tkd andy told me that i must be the devil's child.. (or something along those lines -__-) and i got all worried so i spoke to p.eugene about it. he told me that sometimes it just happens. he said that when it does, try to look at my life and see what's going on - am i getting closer to God? further from God? am i tired/stressed? stuff like that. i didn't think that it's been any different lately.. but after my near breakdown last night, i think God's trying to tell me something...

there are so many things i need to change about my life right now, i don't even know where to begin. if it wouldn't trouble anyone reading this too much, prayer for guidance and strength would be much appreciated...

some weekly highlights

me: hey! i wanna go to napa~ we should go to napa and go wine tasting~
jae: napa? oh, you mean italy?
me: ummmm, no, napa california.

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carol getting drunk within fifteen minutes of entering the club and spilling my drink all over herself.

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using rose as a deflector when a nasty guy came to talk to me.

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seeing old friends in a new environment. :)

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phil's ribs. wow. wow.

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my niece's 3d bday party~

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internet @ the apt!!!!!!