i got a nice drunken phone call from my bf.. at 7 this morning. -__-;; but it was all good, cuz i went right back to sleep and it was so nice to hear from him. *sniffle* i miss him.

other than that.. imma sooo screweda~~ haha, i need to study. i ditched work yesterday to study, and all i did was do my reading for today and tm morn's class. *sigh* i read thru my notes for one class too. *sigh* and i need to do a whole lot more.

but, i'm excited b/c this weekend i get to have dinner w/ chris son and lila park. YAY!!!! something to look forward to.

*sigh* back to work..

doode, all this time i spent being bored.. only to have it catch up on me. i'm so screwed. xP i have a midterm very soon, and i am soo not ready.

on the other hand, the work thing blew over well. *yay*

i lead a very boring life these days.. just... watching tv or sleeping. sad, huh? i would play w/ hyewon but it takes forever and a day before i can even speak to her, much less meet up w/ her. haha~ so busy, that girl.

other than that, i've been meeting some other ppl that i don't know too well, but seem very nice. (friends of a friend of a friend..haha)

why is it that when i end up meeting "new" ppl, all i end up w/ are guys? xP the only girl i know down here is hyewon, and she's hard to spend time w/ b/c of the reason mentioned above. all the rest of the ppl i know (all 5 of them, yes so exciting) are guys. xP

where my girls at?

i'm bored.

girls, what would be ur response if a guy told u he was checkin u out and thought u were cute?

my friend said, "that's ok."

hahaha~

bleh, i still haven't had the guts to bring this up..

but the day is young.

i met some new "friends." well, not really friends yet, but ppl to play w/. x) yay!

i'm bored..

last pay period i worked 28.75 hours.. so imagine my surprise when i got paid today for only 20 hours..

so i don't want to come off as too aggressive, but what's a working girl supposed to do? i don't understand where he could have lost those 8.75 hours. i started to rationalize.. maybe he's paying me for "real" work.. so i took 15-30 min breaks for lunch.. but even if i add all that up, it's only 2-4 hrs. i'm still missing time somewhere.. and if he was going to do it that way, then he shoulda told me or done it that way the pay period before.

i don't want to be pessimistic, but i feel like he's doing this because he thinks he can get away w/ it cuz i'm a korean girl.. at this point, i'm really not sure what i'm supposed to do.. is he dissatisfied w/ my work? is he testing me to see if i fight back? i don't know. but this encounter has made me feel pretty crappy. i feel cornered and i hate feeling that way. i also feel like they underestimate me, which also sucks.. i don't know..

so this is the working world, huh?

PU haha 143: i guess lila would put us in the same group of weird
PU haha 143: but it's ok...she' sin a whole nother species by herself

hahahahah~ so true..

we love you lila!!

my bf's leaving me. :( to go to corea. that jerk.. *sigh* i guess that means i have time to study now.. xP

man, these past few days have been a blur -- drove up fr SD for my little sister's graduation, then drove back down cuz i had class the next day; on friday, we watched the terminal (a great movie, btw); on sat, went to my bf's graduation at freakin 8 in the AM and then we had lunch, then a nap, then dinner and another movie (stepford wives -- not that great); sunday went to church then came back to kevin's cuz he had to pack, then we went downtown to this great sushi/asian fusion bar then passed out; monday, went to work then had to drive up to downey to pick up my car then i had to drive back down to SD.. just freakin crazy.. i'm so tired..

i didn't do a thang for school. -__-;; i'm so behind and it's the second week of school. *sigh* hopefully i'll have time to catch up this week... but it doesn't look good. my big kahuna boss is out of town for vacation and it looks like dork-boss wants me in tomorrow too. good b/c i get moneys, but bad cuz that means less time for school. *sigh* we'll see how this goes...

wow, that was an incredibly boring post..

omg, i'm at an apple store i think. thisw computer is SO cute!!! i want a powerbook G4. it's soo nice. x( *sniffle* i am sad now. booooo hooooo~~ why am i so poor?

today i went back to court (for the third time) b/c i left work early yesterday due to female problems.. anywho, i saw that lady again (the one that blew me off in the previous post) and now, i don't feel so angry w/ her anymore. i feel so bad for her. ppl treat her so badly b/c stupid attorneys think they're hot stuff or something. x( they totally look down on her and make it so obvious and stuff. hey man, w/o her you couldn't do your job so be nice!! she was much nicer to me b/c i was being nice to her and b/c she saw me in there often. i think she understood my pain -- i'm just a gofer, just like her. she smiled at me a couple of times today.

on the street i met an old harabuji walking hand in hand with his wife. he and i were wearing the same shirt (grey "Army" shirt) and he gave me a thumbs up. i thought that was really cute. hehe, i gave him a thumbs up back. x)

i feel sorry for my bf. he has to study for another final. last night he was up all night studying for his final today. he has another one tomorrow. poor thing.. but then i remember that he's leaving me for corea. x( he's leaving me for two months!! x( what a jerk..

tax is not very fun, but my professor is extremely entertaining. he is the nerdiest looking guy i've ever met, yet he's really funny. he has a taxprof blog he encourages us to read, haha~ and for class we have this crazy handheld device that we use for attendance and also to answer questions he has in class.. man, how far technology has come..

crim pro is not very fun either, but it's a little more interesting (man, for a girl who was soooooooooo anxious about taking crim anything, she really enjoys that subject.. strange, huh?) my prof is a big ball of happy energy. he's a big kahuna too. we're using the text book he wrote. he also wrote a couple of things for the Supreme Court too. oOooOooOoOoOOO~ crazy man..

both classes are freakin freakin hard... in between 12 hrs of work and the mounds of reading we have to do everyday and the fact that my bf will be oceans away, i've come to a conclusion:

this is not going to be a fun summer.

so my boss thinks it's funny to freak me out.

yesterday i had a huge project. i was supposed to take 50 pages of some immigration process and boil it down to 2 pages so that clients could understand this info intelligently. i was already stressed as it was b/c i was doing this for the big kahuna who's not as forgiving as the dork-boss who likes to torture me. so anyway, i worked on it all day. (in between reading xangas and talkin online, of course).. anyway, i turned in something that i thought was pretty crappy (b/c i was just freaked out man.. the big kahuna's always lecturing me.. -___-) anyway, so i just had enough time to print it out and turn it in before it was time to leave.

this morning i walked in and the first thing dork-boss says is: "big kahuna read through what you did yesterday, and he wants you to do it again. (my heart sank, but i was resolved to make this into a learning experience) he was not pleased at all. (heart skipped a beat) frankly he's surprised and he was wondering if you're really a law student. (waaaaaaaat??? :( heart plummeted) actually, i read through it too, and it's pretty shabby work. (omg~ i'm so getting fired! dork-boss is usually nice and compliment'y! this musta been really bad.. AHHHHH!) hahahahaa, i'm just kidding did i freak you out?" -__-;;

on tues, i had to go to the court (remember?) and i came back and told my boss that i was only going to work one more hour because i went to the cthouse early and so i was going to leave after my usual 4 hours were up. and he looked very straight in my face and said, "no, i only allotted you 2 hours for the courthouse. you don't get compensated for any time you stay over." and for some reason, i know that they can't not pay me for work i've already done, but i thought that i wasn't going to get paid. so.. i got a little freaked and pissed at the same time. i think i looked a little tense too cuz he was like, "haha, i'm just kidding.."

not funny...

harry potter was so good!!!

we got there an hour and a half early and already the line was ridikulos. and so were the costumes that many ppl were in. xP but it's all good, cuz we had prime seating. the theater was freakin packed~~ and all these news camera ppl were there too. as if the opening of harry potter is that important, geez mahn..

but the movie was freakin worth it. poor kevin slept thru the whole thing. i guess it's just not as exciting if you didn't read the books. *shrug*

i'm at work. :(

this weekend, my grandma flashed us.. TWICE.. while we were drinking coffee at the coffee bean. haha~

yesterday, i had a very long day. xP i woke up early and got to work an hour earlier. i actually had to go to the court house to do some research. it was fine and i was starting to get the hang of it.. then this lady worker totally ruined it. i was asking for some files and i saw her take it then disappear. she returned with files for some other people. no big deal, right? maybe they were here before me. so anyway, i see her do this several times--forty mins worth. people that i saw come in waaay after me have already gotten their files and i'm still waiting. so i finally go up to the desk and ask another lady why i haven't gotten my files yet... apparently the other chick had taken my request and put it on the bottom of some obscure pile.. -__-;; to make matters worse, this man asked for a file and she came back w/ it really quick and the guy was like, "wow! so quick!" and she giggled coquettishly and said, "only for u" -__-;; geez lady, can u be a little more obvious...??

i came home and found a phone call from an 805 number. i asked my bf if he knew what area code that was, and he was like, "how funny i called that area code today... it's somewhere in northern cali or something.." and i was like.. hrmm... so i called it, and it was the EAOP office. haha~ he called the office earlier and left my number~ how cute is that??

i remember twds the end of my first semester, i was finding it much harder to love people. i thought it was God's way of tellin me that i was not in the right w/ Him. but lila said that maybe God was testing me and trying to make me stronger and telling me to love even when it's hard to do so. it made me think.. then, last sunday, i went to youngnak, and p. jimbob said that sometimes, we don't want to do something that God wants us to. sometimes we get tired and just want God to do it Himself or maybe to get someone else to do it. during those times, it's easy to blame our humanity to get out of doing it. but instead of depending on our own strength, that's when the Holy Spirit was meant to kick in.. even when we don't think we can do it, the Holy Spirit can. God can. let Him work in you to do great things. let Him use you. let Him abuse you.

Lord, abuse me.