Wednesday, May 09, 2007
God, do you have a plan for me? I mean, I know eternally, but here, in this life.. specifically in my career, do you have a path?
I'm so confused. I'm so miserable. Am I just being a brat?
Do you have a job for me that I will find purpose in going to daily? Am I just not listening? Lord, if I'm not listening, please, give me ears to hear. Am I completely in the wrong profession? Do you want me to go another path, despite all the schooling I went through? If that's the case, Lord, I will follow, if only You would lead me.
Lord, uncover my ears, my eyes, my heart and guide me. Help me to trust You. That you have a place for me in the working world. Help me not to settle. Help me to fight for what's important to me. To You.
I pray these things in Your Heavenly Name.. Amen
Basically, since May of 2007, I was actively aware how miserable I was.. yet, I wasn't able to move forward or away from it. In the end, I was unable to move until I was forced. I don't know why it always has to end this way, but for some reason, it seems that God thinks there is a lesson that I haven't learned yet.. or a lesson that I need to learn better. For whatever reason, here I am again.
I'm still not sure what my next step is. The future is uncertain. I've found peace despite that, and for that I feel immensely blessed. I still worry, but in the end, I know that everything happened for a reason, and it happened because it was best for me. I still want to have faith that there is something better for me out there.. even in this crazy economy. I want to have complete faith that God has my back. Some days are harder than others, but I think I do have faith in Him.
Of course this post is one month late, but, as they say, better late than never..?
God, do you have a plan for me? I mean, I know eternally, but here, in this life.. specifically in my career, do you have a path?
I'm so confused. I'm so miserable. Am I just being a brat?
Do you have a job for me that I will find purpose in going to daily? Am I just not listening? Lord, if I'm not listening, please, give me ears to hear. Am I completely in the wrong profession? Do you want me to go another path, despite all the schooling I went through? If that's the case, Lord, I will follow, if only You would lead me.
Lord, uncover my ears, my eyes, my heart and guide me. Help me to trust You. That you have a place for me in the working world. Help me not to settle. Help me to fight for what's important to me. To You.
I pray these things in Your Heavenly Name.. Amen
Basically, since May of 2007, I was actively aware how miserable I was.. yet, I wasn't able to move forward or away from it. In the end, I was unable to move until I was forced. I don't know why it always has to end this way, but for some reason, it seems that God thinks there is a lesson that I haven't learned yet.. or a lesson that I need to learn better. For whatever reason, here I am again.
I'm still not sure what my next step is. The future is uncertain. I've found peace despite that, and for that I feel immensely blessed. I still worry, but in the end, I know that everything happened for a reason, and it happened because it was best for me. I still want to have faith that there is something better for me out there.. even in this crazy economy. I want to have complete faith that God has my back. Some days are harder than others, but I think I do have faith in Him.
Of course this post is one month late, but, as they say, better late than never..?
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