hiring: someone who doesn't mind getting down and dirty to wake up stubborn girl who is diseased with can't-wake-up-in-the-morning syndrome every morning. may include coming to put stubborn girl to bed the night before so that she can better wake up in the morning.

dear God.. please help me.

my arm is about to fall off..

i played tennis this wkend, so it's sore. got lots of exercise. xD

hey~~ nintendo wii tennis counts as exercise! it's hard!

I PASSED!!!

Thank you God!

special post to jae:

thanks for dragging me around on sunday so kevin could get my apt ready for the engagement. :) i thought you were a little weird that day, trying to get me to go back to my apt and offering to come up with me to help.. and all that, haha~ but you pulled it off! jerk.. ^^

sorry for the aftermath of my engagement.. parents, friends, and all.. hehe~ but don't worry. you have an entire year to plan my wedding!

yes, you. x)

i donno if it's the shockingly good news that's still settling or if i actually am settled and this is my reality, but: i. hate. school.

i have never been so un-motivated about school. ever. you know how i was supposed to go back to reality and write my paper? yea, i didn't. i barely finished it and emailed it in.. after i missed class, slept til like 12 pm before starting today. today. i started today people! it was due today and i had over 3 wks to work on it!! i mean, i've always been a procrastinator, but this is ridiculous..

i know it's my fault i went back to school.. and my fault that i'm staying. but i'm also one of those ppl that HAS to finish what they start. so 1 more semester of this depression coming right up.

!! i HATE school !!

or maybe i hate myself even more..

GRRRR!!

you know what else my fiance (ack! weird typing that out!) did? he made me a photoalbum of our past 3 yrs together.. hee, cuz all our pics are just on the computer, he printed a whole bunch out and put them together in an album.

i don't want to re-write my paper... *sigh*

read about the proposal here. heee~~


ok, ok, now back to reality. stupid tax paper, here i come... xP

a hundred roses later...


tee heeeee~

in response to lila's comment.. that's also very true. i've felt this way before. it's not a suicidal type of feeling, but just one of those life cycles, i suppose.

as i sit here in class, i wonder.. what the hell am i doing here? what is this extra degree going to do for me? -__-;; i am truly sick of school. it's my 21st year of school. i think maybe i'm burnt out.

that and i have a "visitor" so i'm pissy as it is.

insert "rock concert movement #6" here. (but not in a happy/good way)

blah!


p.s. the blue man group was pretty amazing. tracy bonham has got some pipes. thank you bf. :)

i'm tired. not the body-aching kind, but the-i-just-don't-feel-like-living-anymore kind of tired.

and i don't understand why. it's not like my life is falling apart right now. in fact, it's pretty swell. i've got my amazing friends, my amazing bf, an amazing family (sometimes), and even my roommates are getting better (very slowly). but don't you ever feel like asking, "when is this all going to be over? when can i just rest?"

i know i have no right to think such things, especially since i've been and am continuously being so blessed.. yet, i can't help but yearn for that day when i can finally go Home.

i don't belong here..

i'm going to start to sit at my desk and QT everyday. does anyone want to start with me? holla back young'n.. hehe

my goal this month is to spend less than i make...

*sigh*

understatement of the year:

"there's this thing called the mayan trail which spans from mexico to guatemala...there's a high chance that we'll either: get mugged, raped, killed, or any combination of those three...it sounds really fun, but i think it'll be hard for us 2 xP"

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i did not say the above, hehehehe

so annoyed!

..ok, fine so i'm not anymore. yelling at your roommates can do that for you. -__-