la, here i come...

yesterday was a good day...

1. i got paid.
2. i fit (slightly) better into my clothes.
3. i got a phone call saying that i got in as a transfer student to loyola.

it's so AMAZING how good God is... all this summer i kept praying: "Lord, just get me to LA so that i'll have a church to go to..." and then i get this phone call. i was completely ecstatic.

it's so SICKENING how sinful i am. my ecstacy soon turned to dissatisfaction and i thought: "well, if it were UCLA, there would be no question. i would definitely go to UCLA.. but Loyola?"

i remember this same feeling when i first applied for law schools.. i tried to get a "sign" from God to see if my time @ berkeley/kcpc was over. i prayed, "Lord, if i don't get into Hastings, i'll take it as a sign that my time is over." instead, i got waitlisted. i remember being angry that He was so unclear...

well this time, He was a bit clearer. i didn't get into UCLA. *bam* door closed.. yet i still donno what to do..

on the one hand, i've made myself a comfortable niche here in SD. if i leave, i'd have to start all over again. i hate meeting new ppl. i'll be a loner again. on the other hand, i'd be saving a couple thousand dollars if i went to loyola, AND be in the job market i want to be in. then again, i was really looking forward to the classes/professors i was going to take next semester.. and now, i have to take all the "leftover" classes @ loyola. then again, if i went to loyola i'd be closer to my family but if i went to loyola i'd be closer to my family. (haha, that goes both ways).

do u see my dilemma?

i have until tomorrow. *eep*

altho i know i probably should take pictures while driving, sometimes the sky is so beautiful, i can't help it.. i'll just drive really slowly and click until i get a decent pic. usually it takes me a good 10 before i get 1 good one. here is one of those times:



so pertyful....
don't worry.. i've done it a million times, and still no crash.

currently not: 

oi vey.. studying has been very slow. i can't sit still more than 30 mins at a time! xP but i've been trying to take the extra time and exercise more. unfortunately, i keep eating junk. xP

when will it all be over????

 

today, i am feeling

i went through all this trouble trying to sign up for photobucket so i could post pics.. hehe, we'll see if this works...
i so do not want to study.. but with finals literally just next week i better get cracking. *sigh*

other than that, i'm doing mighty fine. i started to exercise yesterday b/c i'm a fat blob. every time i go home, my parents -- both of them -- tell me how fat i am. my dad is a little "nicer" about it. he tells me things like, "you should really exercise." my mom, on the other hand.. not so subtle. "you're going to eat??? stop eating!" -__-;; oh the love..

here is a pic from my visit up to berkeley in may. my girls are so cute!! hehe, sumi thought she was not in the pic, but we got her too. that's what she gets for refusing to take a pic w/ me!

*sigh* i really miss berkeley these days.. actually.. i miss my kids the most. i miss being involved in church. i thought i needed a break, but.. i guess i was wrong...

anyway.. i just wanted to test out my picture posts.. x) look forward to some pics of my niece next!

it's so freakin hot!! x( i hate this heat~ it makes me dahp dahp hae and i can't breathe. that or it's all the weight i gained that's making it harder to breathe.. either way.. ARG!
 
i'm so sad. i went to financial aid today. i donno why they call it financial aid. all they're aiding me to do is amass mounds of debt. *sigh* i'm going to be in debt forever and ever and ever and ever. and ever.
 
i actually studied today after work. i mean.. i read for class. haha~ same thing. i can't believe that summer school is already over. xP just one more week of class/torture then it's finals already. i should be studying now instead of blogging, but you and i know that i never do what i should be doing. x)
 
have a great day y'all~

isn't it enough that i did a commercial for these ppl?? -__-;;

now i have to sit for a picture for their newsletter. *sigh* it never ends.....

my cat freakin attacked my armpit this morning. x( you may think it's funny but it really hurts~! seriously.. that's the worst place to get an injury cuz it's always in use. *sigh*

it's gonna be a long day....

it's a blow to the ego when you think you're doing someone else a favor and it turns out it was for your own selfish reasons.

it's another blow when it actually matters to you more than you thought...

i guess some things were just meant to end.

i mean.. i guess i always knew that. i just wanted it to be on a happier note than it ended on.

if only i could have swallowed my pride a little bit earlier...

*sniffle*

they took my keys back from my old work. *sigh* no more internet access for me... hmmm... does that mean i'm fired?

Your score as a human being is 82.45.


You are close to ideal. So close, and yet so far. Amusing, really, to watch someone squirm so close to the vaunted ranks of perfection and still remain so very, very ordinary. It is all one can do to keep one's ingratiating smile from polluting one's perfect face.

Actually, one recommends you take the quiz again and lie a little.

like everything else in my life.. i'm always just a B average.

yesterday was a very random day...

remember how i used to live with that 40-something year old lady? when i first moved to SD, i didn't have a place to live and i happened to find this house right by school. despite lila's warnings i moved in.. little did i know..

our schedules just did not match -- she was older and went to bed around 11. me? yea.. i'm a night owl. AND i was only renting out the room. if i wanted to use her living room, i had to pay an extra $100. psh~ i'd rather keep my money, thank you very much. anyway, i told her i was moving out and moving in with my little sister due to financial reasons. (a little white lie). she asked me for a favor and asked me to write a letter regarding some dampness in her room. i said ok. GOODNESS and i'm supposed to be a lawyer?? NEVER sign your name to ANYTHING.

anyway, i get a call from her a couple of weeks ago (i should've changed my number!) and she says that she still has some money she owes me.. she tells me she will mail it to me and asks me for my address... i gave it to her. it's been several weeks and still no check. BUT...

first thing yesterday morning i get a knock on my door and i'm freakin subpoenaed. :LSDFJ:SLfjd;lajdf;aldjf;!!!! so annoying. so NOW, i have to go somewhere and be deposed. what a waste of TIME!!!! what a little LIAR! she just wanted my address to freakin subpoena me. AHHHHH!!!

THEN, i come to work, already huffy b/c of that stupid subpoena and my boss tells me that they are going to shoot a commercial. fine. no big deal. THEN the tv guy comes and informs me that i'll be in the commercial and isn't that so exciting? and i was thinking.. "ummm... NO." *sigh* didn't matter cuz i had to do it anyway. fortunately, it's just the back of my head and a shot of my hand/arm. i haven't seen it.. but watevers.. i'll probably never see it. it's for the SD korean station. *shrug*

what a day...

you know that you have a good friend when they tell you things you don't want to hear b/c you need to hear it. thanks jae. ^^;;

i had fun last night. x) but that means that i'm sleep deprived now. x(

jae and jaekyung should be on their way back up to LA now. *sigh* i'm gonna be all lonesome again..

i need to find some friends...

on the other hand, i gotta stop being so friendly. haha~

*sigh* never can find a good balance.

i miss my boyfriend terribly. so freakin terribly. x(

i donno what's wrong w/ me. i just can't seem to focus these days. xP i haven't done any of my reading for class this week.. and i missed class 1.5 times. today, it sorta sucked tho, cuz i stayed up reading for class this morning and i didn't make it. i hate that. xP

gosh, i just want summer school to end. will it ever end?????

xanga.com/heavenahn

lookie~~ new pictures of my cute baby niece!!

so i forced myself to stay at school so i can read for class because when i go home all i do is watch tv. so i thought that staying at school would help me concentrate a little better...

and here i am online... -__-;;

i amaze myself w/ my procrastinating skills.