so my housing plans came crashing down in my face today.

i know that in a lot of ways, my wanting to move out isn't really that important...but i just need to get out. it's getting worse and i feel so trapped. does anyone know of an apt that is available and affordable and month to month lease? it's only going to be me so it doesn't even have to be that big.

i need a car. does anyone know how i can get a really crappy, cheap-o car that will run for exactly 3 years?? it can be any kind of car as long as it runs. even stick-shift is fine. just anything.

i need to study. does anyone have a gilbert's outline for civ pro and property?

am i sleeping yet? i think i am. man! i shouldn't have drank that coffee...am i sleeping yet? oh, crap i think i was. man! that freakin coffee. am i sleeping yet??

i had a very fitful night. -__-;;

on a happier note, this weekend i studied so much! wow i'm so proud of me. never in my academic career have i ever been this on task. i went to the lib on sat and sun! i think maybe God was tryin to give me more incentive to go to the lib too, cuz i saw my ta both days. xD haha~ and on sun, he even came over to say hi!

i can't wait for tgvn break. xP i'm kinda getting sick of all these cases...and law school in general is taking its toll on me too. i don't really want to get into it, but it's just different, i guess. gotta get used to it.

thank you carroll. you have impeccable timing. just perfect. ^^

i'm having too much fun here. so much fun that it's made me sick. -__-;;

but seriously, i had so much fun last night. (and the week before. and the week before that.) my friends/unnis are so freakin great. they're sooo fun and always lookin out for me. it's weird cuz i've never been the "baby" of the group and been taken care of so much. x) i also ran into a high school friend of mine last night. wow~~ it was seriously sooo random. a guy that was a friend of my friend's friend came out with us and he looked at me kinda weird then asked me if i knew tony suh. it turns out he came up with anthony last year when he came to visit me in berkeley. what a small world~

it took me lots of convincing to get me out of bed today. i promised myself that i could go to sleep when i finish class. freakin a. 4 more hours to go...

so i was listening to some oldies yesterday and it made me appreciate some people that i haven't thought of in a long time...this is probably going to make me realize how old i am, but....here are some of the songs/artists i was enjoying last night (instead of studying)

Shanice - when i close my eyes i just like this song.
Chicago 'nuff said.
Boyz II Men 'nuff said.
Mariah Carey i've always liked her. it's a shame her new stuff stinks.
Whitney Houston wow, this woman is amazing~! i don't think i ever noticed how amazing she was. i mean i always liked the way she sounded but i thought that was it.. but no. she's freakin amazing.
Simply Red - if you don't know me by now i just like this song too.
Surface - shower me with your love this song is just sweet.
Stevie B - when i dream about you the lyrics are really corny....but i just love this song! i remember when i was in middle school i recorded this song on a cassette tape (omg, remember those??) front and back
PM Dawn - i had no right there's one line in particular that i love: "what's the easiest way to hurt a man? give him everything he ever wanted." just something to think about...

and i decided that i don't like my ta anymore. haha~ i went to his OH's yesterday and no blushing. and i noticed that he flirts way too much. xP me no likey that.

yes, this is what i thought about for 4 hours while not reading.. and ended up staying up til 2:30 am reading what i shoulda read while i was thinking and listening to music and playing solitare. i had to delete all the games from my computer too.

i love law school.

i have a crush on my t.a. -___-;;

i haven't had a crush in like 8 years, but it's definitely a crush. it's so sad! i can't even be normal around him because i start blushing if he gets too near. -__- i'll be asking him a question and so he'll lean in to answer and i can feel myself turning red~ it's horrible! and of all people, my t.a.?? i have to actually go to his OH's and ask him questions. i have to see him every other day for class. i can't even talk to him though because i get so red. and i can't stop staring at him...it's so freakin obvious~

of all people... *sigh*

what the heck is wrong with me???