Thursday, September 29, 2005

man.. i want a brownie.

not a homebaked one, but you remeber those brownies they sold at school? the ones w/ an inch of frosting and the crushed peanuts that come in individual packets.

yummmmm......
i'm looking down and i see around 7 girls laying on their backs and holding hands and they're sliding off the mountain side. the snow is too loose and it doesn't cause enough friction for them to stop. there's an eerie sound coming from the doomed girls. i want to help them, but i'm just a pair of eyes. as my gaze moves twds the edge of the cliff, i see 2 adults - one woman, one man - and they're hanging on for dear life. i recall the girl was holding onto the cliff and the man was holding onto her. for some reason, i realize the girls are trying to kill the two on the edge, but i still have this hope they are going over to try and help.. the 2 on the edge realize they must plunge to their death or be devoured by these girls. the girl lets go, and the eerie song of the girls grows louder as the 2 fall to their inevitable deaths.

i drop, and am standing in the woods. it's winter - the trees are covered w/ snow and the lake is frozen over. i look up, and see the ghosts. yet, they seem harmless. they look ragged and tired. they want to leave this earth, but they're stuck in this place called the "cross road." they want me to help them, but i'm not sure what i'm supposed to do. suddenly i have 2 companions - a girl and a boy. even more suddenly, the girls on the ledge start chasing us. it is for these girls' sake we take on the mission. we start running across the lake. i can hear the ice groaning under our weight, and visions of the ice cracking take over my mind. the girls turn into tiny balls w/ only eyes and a mouth, making them much faster b/c they can roll on the ice. i know i shouldn't try to "kill" them and when they get close, i'm able to kick them away. i know we just need to make it to the cabin at the edge of the woods. we run and run, and we're able to get to the door. but the girls/balls are fast. they gain on us and we barely make it. my guy companion is a step behind and he stands on the porch, thinking this is sufficient. one of the girl spheres takes this chance to jump on his neck and starts to suck the life out of him. his eyes roll up and he starts to slump forward. i scream and i grab the monster off his neck and stomp on her, deflating her. i drag him inside, but before i can get him inside, the sphere has stuck itself onto one of its own and has inflated again. from there she jumps onto my thumb, and hooks on like a leech. i notice the air deflates again when she is not sucking on something, so i shake it off and rush inside.

the people inside are looking at me like i'm crazy. one of them tries to go outside, and i scream at them to stand back and to close the door. one of the kids keeps going forward. i push him aside and block the door. a girl with a cat looks behind me and says: "look, it's just a kitten and a puppy." i turn to see they, in fact, have turned into a kitten and a puppy. they look harmless, but on a closer inspection, you can see their blood-shot eyes, and blood-covered mouths. i tell the girl to look closer and tell her i'm just trying to save her cat. they finally listen to me and the "girls" go away.

i need to help these poor ragged ghosts. i know i need to get on the 9th floor of this buidling, but in order to get there, i need a key. my companions turn into 2 girls. we aren't supposed to be here, so we try to blend in w/ the crowd. we look for a nice lady and ask her to borrow her keys. we get one with fairly little trouble. i stick the key into the slot for the 10th floor, and was about to turn when my companion reminds me it's the 9th floor. *oops* i turn the key several times before the button pops up so we can press it. i turn to look for my other companion, who's name escapes me at the moment. but we can't find her. we know this is our only chance. we try to stall as much as we can, but the elevator starts beeping, and we know we must continue w/o her.

we get to the 9th floor and there's a room that looks like a church. it's very old and wooden and has 2 rows of wooden pews. people are sitting around. the people here seem to be as old and as worn as the pews they are sitting in. i start to give a speech about the wood ghosts and how they need our help. i give a passionate speech about how the ghosts are their ancestors, their mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, and lovers. the people in the room are not impressed. in fact, they seem to be scared. they don't want to have anything to do w/ the ghosts.

suddenly, i'm joined by the ghosts. one of them is a young japanese guy. he says he will help me make my case. i agree, but before i do, i want to make sure i'm not the only person that can see them b/c i don't want the people to think i'm crazy, ya kno? so i ask the ghost if everyone can see them, and he answers in the affirmative. by now, it's getting chaotic. the living seem to be glad to meet their ancestors, but still afraid.

it's then i realize i must take the living people to the "cross road" and the ghosts and the living must actually cross roads in order to be rid of each other. i tell this to my now male companion who seems skeptical. then i tell him that must be why the place is called the "cross road" (get it?)

unfortunately, i know this is not going to happen, so i settle for introducing the ghosts w/ their kin.

i asked the japanese ghost who his descendant is and he tells me he's captain __ (again the name escapes me). so i ask whether that person is in the room, and he is in the front of the room. i take the ghost and introduce him to his ascendant, an old japanese gentleman, with a long white beard and his hair in a bun and wearing old style clothing (like in the old movies). the ghost (who is wearing t-shirt and jeans, btw) starts by bowing and saying in japanese that he can't speak very much japanese. the old man, who only speaks japanese, seems impressed.





then i woke up.
yes, all my dreams are this exciting/detailed. no, i'm not weird.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

don't everyone line up at once now. xP

i guess no one wants to play with me. xP

i'm tired. but i'm stupider. i stayed up til 2:30 a.m. watching gilmore girls. THEN i went to the bathroom and picked up harry potter book 5 and ended up reading until 5:30 a.m.

i had plans to wake up early, but i ended up waking up at 11:50 a.m. i have class at 1, so you can imagine i didn't have very much time to do anything this morning. x(

i seriously can't wait til next week.

sdfja;weoifja;dfjaosdifja;sdfka;weoifjadf

having a laptop has been detrimental to me during class. i think it's better i leave my laptop at home/in my car b/c i end up spending most of my time online. xP

but don't worry. right now it's break time.

*ho hum* i just want this week to be overrrrrrrrrrrr.

bye bye peoples.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

next week, i have 1 day of class. i get mon-wed off. mon, i only have 1 class, but my prof cancelled all his classes for the week. tues, we don't have class b/c of some jewish holiday, and wed i have class w/ the same prof that cancelled all his classes for the week. (not that you care) but WOO HOO!

i can't wait~~ happy early spring break to meeeee!! (well, i guess it would be autumn break, but whatever)

supposedly i'm going to use that time to catch up w/ my school work, but... we know that's not going to happen. maybe i can look for a job instead.

yea, that's probably not going to happen either.

who wants to play w/ me?

Monday, September 26, 2005

watched corpse bride yesterday. i really liked it.

the wkend was pretty crazy, but i think it was well-deserved. partied on friday w/ hyewon, eugene, jae, and jaekyung @ some club in costa mesa where the bartender hand-fed cherries to jae and hyewon.. went to billy & janice's wedding (CONGRATS!), then partied again on sat. at the after-party. partied on sunday, but a different kind of party - it was my niece's bday party at her church so i went there to help/celebrate. she's two! x)

recently, had a heart to heart with a dear friend. it was very good because it made me realize that i have problems with communication. -__-;; i always knew that, but i tend to forget it often. i'm working on it. it's a very slow process though.. thank you for not completely giving up on me yet.

i guess i will always be a work in progress.

..hopefully i progress soon.

unfortunately, this blog has not been very productive.. i wonder how long i should keep this thing alive...

wow.. i feel really old now.



Wednesday, September 21, 2005

prof: what comes to mind when you think of "fraud"?
student: george bush!

haha, pretty clever~

and yet so sad. xP

Thursday, September 15, 2005

*sigh*

i haven't heard from the firm i interviewed with yet. supposedly no news is good news, but.... *sigh* i really want to work for them.

now i have to start sending out resumes to other firms. blech. did you know that out of all the resumes you send out, you only get interviews for about 3% of them??? that means i have to send out 100 resumes to get 3 interviews!!!! slasdf;oawej;laskdflasdf

i'll be so glad when i finish my interview today.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

p.s. i think i had a good interview today! i heard the interviewer say "i think you'd be a perfect fit for our firm" before the end of it!

but i don't think i got it. (just to be safe.. better to not expect, right??)

but if i did, i'd be SO happy! i really want to work for this firm.. *sigh*
"happy load's day to all! love, mam"

this was the most recent message my mom left for us on our whiteboard (actually, ours is blue, but you know what i mean). she likes to leave these messages.. sometimes it's telling us to clean, other times she tells us to have a good day, and others she leaves special messages for certain daughters.

this was what i found one morning after i came home from a late night at jae's (or the library) during finals:
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rough translation: "those who sleep early and wake up early are healthy."

hehe, mom's are cute.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

i'm just not a good interviewer...even for a job i didn't really want anyway, haha~ first, i was late. then, i couldn't print out the profile they requested (which was why i was late).. then i didn't really do much in the interview except listen.

oh well. at least it's not that big of a loss because i didn't want that job..

...still, it woulda been nice to have ONE kick-ass interview.

*sigh*

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

disneyland: snow white musical



this mirror opens/closes like a camera shutter. the face also moves. craziness..

haejin is not paying attn in class. this is why she should NOT have a laptop during lectures. haejin is easily distracted.
food consumed today:
breakfast: (7:20 a.m.)
rice with gook (yum)

lunch I: (11:00 a.m.)
1 whole pita w/ tuna & egg salad

lunch II: (3:00 p.m.)
1 whole pita w/ tuna & egg salad;
1 white chocolate chip, chocolate cookie (yummmmm)

dinner: (7:30 p.m.)
green tea w/ leftover peanuts. (about 1/4 cup = 13 g fat)

i'm debating if i should finish the tuna salad w/ a croissant i bought. that would mean i finished 2 cans of tuna and 3 (small) hardboiled eggs in one day. is that healthy?

omg.. i can't keep my eyes open.

(yep, still in class)
am i getting allergies??? what is up with the watering eyes and sniffly nose???

my body seriously has impeccable timing. right when i have interviews, i have managed to grow a gargantuan red hill on my nose (aka pimple) - the pulsating, created-its-own-zip-code kind. AND to top it off, it looks like i've gotten allergies? my nose is dripping and my eyes have been watering all day. if i ran into anyone that cared, they'd ask me what was wrong b/c it looks like i've been crying. *sigh* perfect timing yes?

aww.. i thought my prof wasn't going to come today.. but alas.. here he is. and i didn't do my reading. xP

Saturday, September 03, 2005



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a post dedicated to my adorable niece:

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"i don't want to take any more pictures" pose

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"tigger, why won't they take me home?" pose

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man, i'm really cute

Thursday, September 01, 2005

happy alex?