am i really that intimidating?

to those that i may have frightened or intimidated in any way shape or form: i'm really sorry. i don't mean to be that scary. it's just a result of being a part of my family...

James 1:2-6 "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind."

thanks michelle.

i've been really overwhelmed the past few days/weeks. but instead of doing anything about it, i've been pretty much sitting on my butt doing nothing.. but God has been good enough to give me friends that remind me that my spiritual walk is like any other relationship.. it's a two-way thing. i can't just sit here and complain. i have to get up and ask questions, ask for help.. i have to get up. thanks girls.. i needed that.

Lord please move me

i know that for most people home means rest and they want to go home. me.. it's not that simple. it is nice to be home. and i have had lots of fun. i went to magic on tues with a random group of people: me, jae eun, jae kyung, lila, esther lee, fred, and daniel hahn. it was a lot of fun and i actually rode the rides. i went to norebang twice already, and all this other fun stuff...

but then there's the other stuff that stresses me out and makes me wish that i was still far away... like having to cook every meal everyday. i like cooking. it's just thinking up the menus that i hate. i don't know. there's a lot of stuff inside me. most of it is bitterness that i shouldn't and don't really want to get into.

blah.

happy graduations to all the other uc's!

for work, they had me and girsty sift through the archives of the berkeleyn and the daily cal to look for some quotes. although we didn't find any quotes we did find some funny articles. haha~~ here is an excerpt and an article that i found particularly sillarious (as basile would say):

Excerpt 1:
While not every person who gropes people becomes a serious sex offender, police say most serious sex offenders have groped.

Article 1
Study: Semen Loses Spunk Earlier in Life
By EMILY GRUEN
Contributing Writer
Friday, February 7, 2003

It's a topic most men won't like to think about, but by the time they graduate college the quality of their semen has already started to decline.

That's according to a new study published yesterday in the journal Human Reproduction by researchers from UC Berkeley and Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory.

The results of the study were surprising in that the decline in semen quality "occurred very early and was progressive," said Andrew Wyrobek, head of the Health Effects Genetics Division at Livermore lab and co-author of the study.

The study differed from past research because it used healthy males, rather than men seeking help at fertility clinics.

With each passing year, a man's sperm slows down and loses sense of direction, lowering his chances of impregnating a woman, the study found.

As early as age 22, the speed of a man's sperm--known as sperm motility--has a 25 percent chance of being abnormally slow. The number grows gradually to 85 percent by the time the man is 80, the study found.

Sperm navigation also degrades with age, researchers discovered. Instead of heading straight for the egg, the sperm has a better chance of getting stuck swimming endlessly in circles, wiggling aimlessly or not moving at all.

By age 30, the sperm in half of all men have trouble getting around, according to the study.

The study shows that women aren't the only ones who have to worry about their "biological clocks" ticking, but men still have it easier than women.

Women are hit with a sudden decrease in fertility in their 30s. Men become gradually less fertile as the years go on.

"Having a baby is definitely a couple issue," Wyrobek said. "Not only do we have to worry about a woman and her age, but now we also have to worry about a man and his age."

Despite the study's apparent implications, the decrease in men's semen quality may not be directly caused by old age, said Brenda Eskenazi, a professor of epidemiology and maternal and child health at UC Berkeley.

The study's authors reached no conclusions as to why the decline in semen quality occurs.

my, my, my. the things you can find on the internet.

d a n n y x 424: haejin! what's your problem?!
X bYuLgZr X: what do you mean??
d a n n y x 424: you were in my dreams two nights ago...again!

kekekeke~ i don't know why, but that made me really happy. xD

thanks for sharing with me danny~~~

did you know that berkeley's school of journalism offered a class on blogging last (academic) year?

Blogging along
Popular online format spurs creation of fall J-School course

By D. Lyn Hunter, Public Affairs

Adjunct Professor of Journalism Paul Grabowicz wants students in his new fall course to not only read weblogs, but make their own.

15 August 2002 | Blogs. Though the name is clumsy, the method is deft: A weblog (?blog? for short) is a web-based tool for spreading information on a variety of topics around the world via the Internet.

Using blogs, individuals or groups post a running commentary on topics that interest them - politics, technology, pop culture - nearly anything at all. The sites typically include links to other web resources and a space for readers to provide feedback or interact. They are updated frequently, even several times a day, as new information flows in. Estimates put the number of weblogs currently online at anywhere from 200,000 to 500,000.

Intrigued by this growing phenomenon and its potential for journalists, Paul Grabowicz, director of the Graduate School of Journalism's New Media Program -- along with Berkeley teaching fellow and Wired magazine co-founder John Battelle -- has created a new fall course on weblogs. Students will create a weblog that explores the subjects of intellectual property and copyright, topics of keen interest to the online publishing community. They will post news bulletins, stories, background information, and links to related blogs as well as solicit feedback from readers; local experts, including campus faculty, will contribute as well.

"Weblogs are a great way to get the latest information on an issue," says Grabowicz, himself a contributor to a weblog focusing on online journalism (www.poynter.org/tidbits). "Breaking news, court decisions, speeches, and other updates are often posted in real time, which can be very valuable to reporters." Another benefit, he says, is that the sites are interactive, with comments pouring in from readers all over the world, much like a global network of news bureaus.

"Traditional news formats are static -- once a story is published, it doesn't change," Grabowicz says. "But weblogs are more organic, continually changing shape as new details are added. And the information is not filtered through an editorial process."

Grabowicz acknowledges that adopting the weblog approach to publishing -- where "we post a story and then engage our readership to expand on it" -- raises some questions about the role journalists can or should assume in this new medium. "Do we just serve up a story and have the public take it or leave it, as in traditional media? Or do we make it more interactive and try to connect with people?"

He's not alone in pursuing these kinds of questions, though his tone may be more measured. When news of the planned class broke earlier this summer, it created an uproar among blogging purists.

"All hell broke loose," Grabowicz says, recalling the media flurry that surrounded the controversy. One weblogger said the class would be "the Altamont of blogging," referring to the ill-fated 1969 Rolling Stones concert that symbolically ended the peace-and-love era.

One oft-stated concern is that blogs will be co-opted by corporate media giants, who will pervert the passion, spontaneity, and accessibility that are the hallmarks of weblogs, morphing them into traditional news vehicles, Grabowicz explains. Indeed, he points out, many weblogs were created by people frustrated by the narrow scope of mainstream media. Blogs put the power of newsgathering in the hands of the people, many of whom feel they are just as good as -- or better than -- professional reporters. A class that will train journalists to blog is seen as a threat to this grassroots effort.

"What the bloggers don't realize is that many of us at the journalism school share their same criticisms of big media," Grabowicz says. "Our hope is that journalists and bloggers can work with each other instead of against each other."

it's interesting what you can find while working.. x)

i feel like a grandma...

my back hurts from knitting and i have 3 howling babies that constantly poo and pee on themselves.... -__-;;

but other than that, it's been pretty chill. me and girsty have been passing the time watching movies. many many many movies. i shall list the ones that i've seen in the past three days:
Finding Nemo
Harry Potter: The Sorcerer's Stone
Harry Potter: Chamber of Secrets
Matrix
Carrie
Bug's Life (well, part of it.. i fell asleep)
Antz
Prince of Egypt
Emperor's New Groove

those are the ones that i remember....i'm missing 2. kristy saw like 5 more movies than me. we've been eating pizza for the past 3 days. 3 days ago (when we started our movie fest) we thought it was a brilliant idea to order a large 2-topping pizza, a medium sized cheesy stix, and a pound of spicy buffalo wings for the two of us. but we got hungry waiting for the pizza, of course, so we ate ravioli too. we didn't finish the pizza, and so we are suffering for our gluttony. yes we are disgusting...

i cooked for her.. but it's almost midnight. should i wake her?

i'm bored. i think i shall.

it's been a long 2 days.

Don'ts
- don't feed your kitties then bathe them without pee'ing them first. they just pee all over you right after you finish bathing and drying them so you have to bathe them again.
- don't worry that your kitties aren't pooing because when you come back you're going to find that they are VERY able to poo. -__-;;
- don't tell kristy's cat to fart. because it will..... spewwwwwwwwwwwww~~~~

it's been really draining these past few days. i'd like to say that it was all due to physical fatigue, but it wasn't. people just suck sometimes. i'm sure i suck a lot of times too though...

Lord please give me everlasting patience and unconditional love. why can't i love?