wow! i've never done so badly on a midterm before.

19 ppl did as badly or scored below me. i'm at the bottom 19% of my class. wow haejin. good job.

omg i need to step it up.. just to get a C.

*sigh* this sucks.

this edition of my blog will be called:
holiday memories:
in the winter when all of us are home, my mom, in order to induce us to get out of our warm bed, would turn on the heater full blast until it was warm enough to crawl out. but sometimes that would backfire on her and we would fall back asleep because it was so warm and toasty. mmmmMmmmmMMmmmm~~ but we really did try our best to get out of bed...most of the time..xD

my goodness. i've been amazing myself these past 2 days. i woke up in time to go to school with my brother-in-law. we'll see how long it lasts. i think i'm freakin out tho.. i have finals.. like.. next week! *sigh* well, i'm supposed to be writing this memo that's due tomorrow..so i better get to it.

happy thoughts everyone~

i played spider solitare for 3 hours yesterday.

i still haven't written my paper that i need to submit to my professor tonight.

yay me.

i don't want to write my paper.

1) i am thankful that i found out that my page requirement is 25 pages, not 35. (woo hoo!)
2) i am thankful that today is the last day of school for 4 days!
3) i am thankful that i got to see my niece this morning
4) i am thankful that i get to sleep in tomorrow
5) i am thankful that the office is very quiet today
6) i am thankful that it's a little warmer today
7) i am thankful that this semester is almost over
8) i am thankful that it's almost Christmas
9) i am thankful that jae is so honest
pshh. i don't put up with u when you're at ur worst luv, i just ignore u. haha aren't u thankful for friends like me who make u realize what it is like to have enemies??
10) i am thankful for today.

have a wonderful thanksgiving y'all~

1) i am thankful that i don't have class on thursday or friday
2) i am thankful for all 4 of the thanksgiving dinners i will be having this weekend.
3) i am thankful that my mom is going to cook her ham. YUM!
4) i am thankful that i have a family to spend thanksgiving with.
5) i am thankful that one of my classes got canceled tomorrow
6) i am thankful for tastebuds to be able to taste the delicious food i will be having
7) i am thankful that i have a job that requires no real work out of me
8) i am thankful that my brother in law came and picked up me this morning even tho i didn't make it yesterday.
9) i am thankful that kevin is going to come and study with me today.
10) and fine...i'm sometimes sorta thankful for my 3 sisters.
kidding. i'm thankful for the 3 wonderful, loud, and uniquely beautiful sisters o'mine.

1 more day of classes.. just one more day...

until i get to study all throughout my break and catch up with all my classes. *yay*

it's already thanksgiving!

inspired by esther's blog, i'm going to write a little about what i am thankful for today..

1) i am thankful that i am finished with part one of my ethical lawyering final
2) i am thankful for my mom and dad.
they're really funny. today they drove me to school and i was commenting on how there is a lot more graffiti these days and my mom was like, "i know. but i always wondered.. how in the world do they get it up that high?? there aren't any ladders. there are cars 24/7. there are cops 24/7. maybe the cops do it." haha~
and my dad has gotten to babbling.. but he's funny and cute.
3) i am thankful for my beautiful niece, heaven.
4) i am thankful for my wonderful bf
5) i am thankful for friends like jae who put up with me at my worst
6) i am thankful for being able to come to school (even tho i am in buttloads of debt now)
7) i am thankful for my brother-in-law (who i was supposed to go to school with today, but i didn't wake up in time.. so he drove all the way to my house.. then just left without me.. sorry~~~)
8) i am thankful for jaekyung who helped me make tassles for my scarf. x)
9) i am thankful for friends who remind me how important fellowship and accountability is.
strange.. that's been the theme this week..
10) i am thankful for a brand new day.

Lord, please help me to choose You every day. Even when I fail, especially when i fail, help me to come back to You..

i'm in love with third day.

i went to the billy graham youth concert thing last night with jae and jae kyung. wow! the concert was so good~ they were all so good~~ and i was totally in love with the singer of kutless. (he's married.. boo hoo) and the third day singer is really cute with short hair! (he's married.. boo hoo). the tait band was amazing. the singer was different (he's from dc talk) and he was very fun.

it was really amazing tho. the entire rose bowl was filled with ppl! different cultures, different ages.. all gathered to worship God. it sort of was a small glimpse of what it will be like on that day. the kids were excited, the older people were enjoying the music (one harabuji was dancing with a tamborine..keke, so cute), and billy graham came out and spoke briefly about how important it is to make the right choices.


please hurry Lord..

ewwwwwwwwww
my sister is trying to wean her baby. now she is squeezing out her excess milk because her boobs hurt..

ewwwwwwwwww~~

feeling: yipes!
reason: finding out at 3AM this morning just how behind i really am.

feeling: guilty
reason: sleeping this morning instead of studying like i planned. (and blogging right now.. instead of studying)

feeling: stressed
reason: knowing that i have a final next week that i am in no way prepared for; having to write a 35 page paper this weekend so that i can get it into my prof on time for her to review it; having to write 2 other written assignments that i didn't think was going to be so big, but it is..

feeling: blech
reason: stated above.

Lord please help me get through this next month in one piece.

i can't believe how quickly the time has gone... it's already finals! and of course, i'm so freakin behind..

but i decided to not let that bring me down. i'm trying really hard to trust that everything works out in the end.

i really liked this week's sermon. i need to learn to forgive.. not for their sake, but for mine.

it's weird, because sat night i was really depressed and bitter. i didn't know what i was doing and why i was where i was. i hated how i was and i hated how others treated me. then on sunday, the sermon's about how bitterness only leads to more bitterness and how i need to realize that i am in in a position of so much mercy. not only do i sin against God, but i sent His only Son to die for me.

how typically human that i must be reminded every moment of His love for me..

funny comment of the day:
what kinds of primary effects do you experience from watching adult movies? - con law II prof, trying to talk about secondary effects speech restrictions. (he realized what he was asking after the class started laughing and changed the question to: what kinds of primary effects do you experience from watching sound of music... haha~)

on a side note, i can't seem to stay awake these days!! i don't know what's wrong w/ me~~ i have so much to do..... i mean.. is my bed really that comfy that i can't stay awake while reading in it? no more reading in bed!!

*sigh* i will fix that habit very soon.

(i hope)

so this morning at 3AM i received the most disturbing phone call. it was one of those that you hear about -- the raspy breathing and the disgusting "sex" talk that some disgusting freak loser that has nothing better to do with his time does.
i had just woken up so it took me a long time to register.. but i finally got to my senses and hung up.
but when i checked my call history, there was no incoming call at that time! i was so upset and i thought that maybe kevin was trying to play a joke on me, so i called him and he was just as confused as i was.. i had no proof of this call so i thought maybe it was a dream or something.

but it wasn't! i checked my phone activity online and there is an incoming call from a blocked number at 3 am.

you sick disgusting bastard! don't ever call me again! do you really have no life whatsoever that you call random girls and do sick disgusting things like that??? sicko. get a life.

a funny email i received today:
Tryton the Red-tail boa needs a good home (he tried to eat my new
puppy)
8 years old
VERY DOCILE! Likes people (just not small things with fur)
7 feet long
Tank included

a funny comment i receied today:
"you know, i can't help but noticing.. you're such a girl!" - my guy boss (after noting that i had cute things and that i made paper cranes)

i'm tired..

well, since i'm bored here at work, i've decided to bore you all with a glimpse into my boring life.

after my horribly botched midterm i decided to reward myself so i invited jae over and we rented and watched dirty dancing havana nights and hellboy. hehe~ it was a nice chill way to spend the night. the next day, i was supposed to go to work, but i woke up at 2:30.. hahah~ so i didn't. i had a date that night, hehe, so i had to get ready. (of course, i ended up being late). i watched the incredibles it was INCREDIBLE! it was soo cute~ i really liked it. i can't wait to watch it again.

and then on sat, i watched alfie. it started off really good and then.. ended pointlessly w/ an open-ended question about the meaning of life.. it was basically all about one guy and his life as a bachelor and how that came crashing down on him. i hated the ending.

last night i went over to study at jae's. that never works. they always have the tv on and i always watch it. haha~ but if it weren't for them i'd never get to watch tv at all. so i guess i forgive them.

i've been incredibly stressed these days. lots of crap.. school, work, family, finding a job.. thinking about the insurmountable amount of debt that i'm acquiring.. all stress!

last night i asked God if i'll ever be able to let it go and trust Him completely. even though i can attest to how much He has blessed me in my own life, i still can't let go and let Him. even when i know that life would be so much better if i did, i still don't. it's strange.. it's definitely a control issue.. but why do i refuse to acknowledge what i already know?

it was a long weekend...

now with finals exactly one month away, a 35 page paper to write that i have yet to start even researching, a counseling final worth 40% of my grade, and trying to figure out my schedule for next semester, i think i'm going to have a lot of those.

happy holidays to me. :(

yesterday, my class got out early. i went to the cafeteria (or as my prof fondly calls it, crapeteria) to heat up my do-shi-rak. ask i was putting my food into the microwave, someone tapped me on the shoulder. i turned around and it was kevin! he came to eat lunch with me. awww~~~~~ yes, i'm gross. muahahaha, be jealous of me girls. muahahahahaha~~ even grosser, i know. get over it. hahaha~

but it's ok.. cuz it's not like kevin doesn't have his faults. that same day, we were talking on the phone, when all of a sudden he hung up on me. so, i'm in a bit of shock.. especially when he didn't call me back. i waited one minute.. two.. three.. ten. he wasn't going to call back. so i texted him: "jerk." he calls me back cracking up. i didn't think it was too funny so i proceeded to yell at him.

do you know why he didn't call me back?

he FORGOT that he was talking on the phone to me, and in the midst of driving somewhere, he FORGOT to say bye and just hung up. then he FORGOT how he hung up with me and just assumed he said bye and didn't call me back.

how can you forget that you were talking on the phone to your girlfriend?????

*sigh* this is what i live with ladies.. but i guess you gotta take the good with the bad. @ least he's not all bad. x) and i guess, after the fact, it was kinda funny.

no, i take that back. that was just mean.

besmirch

i like the way that sounds..