well, since i'm bored here at work, i've decided to bore you all with a glimpse into my boring life.

after my horribly botched midterm i decided to reward myself so i invited jae over and we rented and watched dirty dancing havana nights and hellboy. hehe~ it was a nice chill way to spend the night. the next day, i was supposed to go to work, but i woke up at 2:30.. hahah~ so i didn't. i had a date that night, hehe, so i had to get ready. (of course, i ended up being late). i watched the incredibles it was INCREDIBLE! it was soo cute~ i really liked it. i can't wait to watch it again.

and then on sat, i watched alfie. it started off really good and then.. ended pointlessly w/ an open-ended question about the meaning of life.. it was basically all about one guy and his life as a bachelor and how that came crashing down on him. i hated the ending.

last night i went over to study at jae's. that never works. they always have the tv on and i always watch it. haha~ but if it weren't for them i'd never get to watch tv at all. so i guess i forgive them.

i've been incredibly stressed these days. lots of crap.. school, work, family, finding a job.. thinking about the insurmountable amount of debt that i'm acquiring.. all stress!

last night i asked God if i'll ever be able to let it go and trust Him completely. even though i can attest to how much He has blessed me in my own life, i still can't let go and let Him. even when i know that life would be so much better if i did, i still don't. it's strange.. it's definitely a control issue.. but why do i refuse to acknowledge what i already know?