no matter what my resolve is to change, i've never actually done it. no matter how much i say i'm disgusted with myself, my claims are only skin deep. if it were deeper, i would have changed long ago. deep down, i think i'm ok.

it's time for a drastic change.

dear Lord, i have never had enough resolve. never had enough discipline. i know i can't do this alone. won't you please help me to remember to look to you for resolve. to remember my greater purpose.. Your greater purpose.. i pray for an amazing 2008. one of complete surrender to You. i pray all these in Your precious Son's name. Amen.