feeling human again

the guys at barbri told us not to change our habits til after the bar. they said: "smoke whatever you've been smoking; drink whatever you've been drinking. now is not the time to get rid of bad habits."

i happily obliged and i consumed jugs of coffee. in fact, i drank more coffee than usual, using the bar exam as an excuse to do so. it was fine and i was happy. coffee makes me happy (duh)

but as of late, i've been having trouble sleeping, so i thought i'd lay off the coffee for a day or two. yesterday was fine. in fact, i had the best sleep i've had in weeks~ i fell asleep around 3 or 4 am, and woke up by myself around 7:45 am (not that i stayed awake. i went bak to sleep and got up at 12pm). anyway, so i thought: "wow! i'm clear-headed and this feels good. maybe i'm taking the coffee thing overboard."

that feeling lasted until about 3pm today when my head felt like it was SPLITTING wide open. it felt like there were a million nano-bots inside my brain and their sole desire was to turn my brain into mush and cause as much pain as they could while they did it.

refusing to give up on my no-coffee thing, i went to sleep. woke up and it was still there; actually i couldn't even sleep properly cuz i'd wake up every 5 mins because of the pain. took 2 exedrin. nothing..

as i sit here and sip my coffee, all i can think is: "those barbri guys sure know what they're doing. who am i to argue with their methods?"

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