i had grand plans to get to the library no later than noon to start working on my paper that is ruining my life. (grumble grumble)
unfortuntately several things thwarted these plans.. first, i woke up at 12. (thank you for calling me kevin.. donno how long i woulda stayed in bed otherwise). then, i decided to make a pit stop to my sister's to see my niece before i came to the library. i ended up spending 2 hours there. when i tried to leave, my niece kept taking my purse and hiding it. when i finally got my purse back, she started crying.. i just couldn't leave her like that. i got my chance to leave when i got up to leave and she thought i was joking with her.. haha~ i left before she started to cry.
last night i had a semi-productive night. i got thru 3 lectures of one class (which is about 6 hrs worth of material). it was good.
i also did some soul-searching and realized how selfish i've become.. i think. i don't think i was this awful of a person before. why is it that as the days pass i become a worse person? aren't you supposed to get better with more practice? i've been living life for 24 years now. shouldn't that make me 24 years more experienced? 24 years closer to being a better person? why do i feel more confused about life than i did a few years ago?
really, has law school become central to my life? who cares if i don't get straight a's this semester? who cares? will it matter in the long run? it won't matter. not to say that i shouldn't study or try.. but just that.. there are more important things in life. like the people that God has blessed me with. although i ended up spending 1.5 hours over what i had planned to at my sister's i don't have any regrets. i don't want to realize that i missed watching my niece grow up.. (as corny as that may sound).
to my friends: i'm really really sorry. i realized that all i've been doing these past few months is complaining. i need to realize how lucky i am because i have friends like you...
i want to personally apologize to yong-jin and daniel for the crappy way i've been treating you guys. i'm truly sorry.
my new resolution is to try and stop complaining. really. if i start complaining, please stop me by any means necessary.
it's now four. time to get cracking.. it won't be so bad tonight. i got a good night's rest and now i need to start and finish my paper so that i can concentrate on my other classes.
piece of cake.. x)
unfortuntately several things thwarted these plans.. first, i woke up at 12. (thank you for calling me kevin.. donno how long i woulda stayed in bed otherwise). then, i decided to make a pit stop to my sister's to see my niece before i came to the library. i ended up spending 2 hours there. when i tried to leave, my niece kept taking my purse and hiding it. when i finally got my purse back, she started crying.. i just couldn't leave her like that. i got my chance to leave when i got up to leave and she thought i was joking with her.. haha~ i left before she started to cry.
last night i had a semi-productive night. i got thru 3 lectures of one class (which is about 6 hrs worth of material). it was good.
i also did some soul-searching and realized how selfish i've become.. i think. i don't think i was this awful of a person before. why is it that as the days pass i become a worse person? aren't you supposed to get better with more practice? i've been living life for 24 years now. shouldn't that make me 24 years more experienced? 24 years closer to being a better person? why do i feel more confused about life than i did a few years ago?
really, has law school become central to my life? who cares if i don't get straight a's this semester? who cares? will it matter in the long run? it won't matter. not to say that i shouldn't study or try.. but just that.. there are more important things in life. like the people that God has blessed me with. although i ended up spending 1.5 hours over what i had planned to at my sister's i don't have any regrets. i don't want to realize that i missed watching my niece grow up.. (as corny as that may sound).
to my friends: i'm really really sorry. i realized that all i've been doing these past few months is complaining. i need to realize how lucky i am because i have friends like you...
i want to personally apologize to yong-jin and daniel for the crappy way i've been treating you guys. i'm truly sorry.
my new resolution is to try and stop complaining. really. if i start complaining, please stop me by any means necessary.
it's now four. time to get cracking.. it won't be so bad tonight. i got a good night's rest and now i need to start and finish my paper so that i can concentrate on my other classes.
piece of cake.. x)
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