i realized last night that i have attention whore problems. i crave it all the time. any time anyone gives me a smidgen of attention i get all stupid. it's a drug for me. i need to stop.

i'm sorry

speaking of apologies, omg.. i never realized how incredibly bratty i was in high school. i was so awful. i can't believe the things that i did. no wonder people accused me of leading guys on. i did. but honestly, please believe me when i say that i had no idea that i was. that i had no idea of what i was doing. i'm so sorry.

*sigh* my life is full of mistakes. will i ever learn from them?

Lord, please, this time, let it be different.