my mom finally came back from japan. it was nice to see her. no matter how much bitterness i feel towards her, when i see her, it seems to all melt away. i guess that's what the love of a family is...

i asked her how my dad is doing. apparently not so well. he's so old and the army has run out of uses for him. it must be so depressing... and to be alone.

i'm such a bad daughter.

all my parents want for me is a better life than they had. why can't i just do what i have to do?

it's times like these when i wonder when i became so cynical and how my heart became so hardened. i wasn't always like this, was i?

Lord please help me to remember You. In remembering You, help me to remember the people that You commanded me to honor.. help me to be a good daughter. Help me to turn to You. I'm so lost. I don't know where I strayed. I've lost sight of You and lost my way. Help me to find You again.