i have a crush on my t.a. -___-;;

i haven't had a crush in like 8 years, but it's definitely a crush. it's so sad! i can't even be normal around him because i start blushing if he gets too near. -__- i'll be asking him a question and so he'll lean in to answer and i can feel myself turning red~ it's horrible! and of all people, my t.a.?? i have to actually go to his OH's and ask him questions. i have to see him every other day for class. i can't even talk to him though because i get so red. and i can't stop staring at him...it's so freakin obvious~

of all people... *sigh*

what the heck is wrong with me???