the sunrise was very beautiful this morning...then i fell asleep. haha~
i stayed up all night.. ALL night watching Escaflowne. twenty episodes that are about 20 min's each.. my eyes are soo puffy right now. i want a bf that has beautiful angel wings and is all magical and is cool like that.
dang, i have so much to do, i don't even know where to begin. first i have to pack and move all my junk out of the apt. then me and hyewon have to do some MAD cleaning to do. icky icky icky~ not only that i have to deal with the stinky law school stuff..
it came to me last night as me and girsty were coming back from costco and berkeley bowl. i think that God is telling me to let go. to just let go... my time here has really ended, and i felt it in the car. but instead of being sad, i felt peaceful. i finally felt like i know where i'm going, and i know that God is leading me there. i know that i was so confused when i got my waitlisted letter from hastings, but i think that God was telling me to just let go. i need to learn to let people and places and times go. i have a tendency to hold on to the past. to always make the past so much more than it was. and to feel like i can't leave it. how strange, but i'm ready to go now. i know that the road ahead of me is going to be very long and hard.. especially this summer..i have a feeling it's going to be one of my toughest summers. but at the same time, there's the comfort in knowing that this is what God ordained from the beginning of time... and i'm ready to finally listen.
Lord, please help me. This summer is going to be really tough. I know that I need to listen. I'm going to have to start all over again. I'm going to have to find a church again, find a body of believers again.. but Lord, I trust in You. Thank You for everything...in Your precious Son's name, Amen.
i stayed up all night.. ALL night watching Escaflowne. twenty episodes that are about 20 min's each.. my eyes are soo puffy right now. i want a bf that has beautiful angel wings and is all magical and is cool like that.
dang, i have so much to do, i don't even know where to begin. first i have to pack and move all my junk out of the apt. then me and hyewon have to do some MAD cleaning to do. icky icky icky~ not only that i have to deal with the stinky law school stuff..
it came to me last night as me and girsty were coming back from costco and berkeley bowl. i think that God is telling me to let go. to just let go... my time here has really ended, and i felt it in the car. but instead of being sad, i felt peaceful. i finally felt like i know where i'm going, and i know that God is leading me there. i know that i was so confused when i got my waitlisted letter from hastings, but i think that God was telling me to just let go. i need to learn to let people and places and times go. i have a tendency to hold on to the past. to always make the past so much more than it was. and to feel like i can't leave it. how strange, but i'm ready to go now. i know that the road ahead of me is going to be very long and hard.. especially this summer..i have a feeling it's going to be one of my toughest summers. but at the same time, there's the comfort in knowing that this is what God ordained from the beginning of time... and i'm ready to finally listen.
Lord, please help me. This summer is going to be really tough. I know that I need to listen. I'm going to have to start all over again. I'm going to have to find a church again, find a body of believers again.. but Lord, I trust in You. Thank You for everything...in Your precious Son's name, Amen.
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