it's almost time...

so many questions...

will they remember me when i'm gone? have i left anything good? does it matter? why is everything competition with me? will i remember them? will i remember to pray for my kids? will they remember me? why do i want to be remembered? will i really miss this, or is it just in the moment? what comes next? what does God have planned for me?

and that's just the very thin top layer of a small portion of my brain.. the rest is filled with doubts and fears. yet i should hold onto the grace that got me here, allowed me to be a part of three wonderful ministries, allowed me to serve and learn in two ministries, and got me through it all.

it's almost over...

it's almost beginning...