I paint a picture, I think it's easier to live that way. But my heart is really broken. I'm not the man you think I am when you see me each day torn apart and then left open. Father come and fill me up I can't wait for you to overflow my cup. My heart makes me wonder how much longer til you're coming back to take me away. My heart longs for you to fly right through the sky and take me to the place where I will never feel my heart break down again. I search the sky and then I try imagining you there looking on anticipating. You're standing by and know when I will join you in the end. Until then I'll be here waiting. Father come and fill me up I can't wait for you to overflow my cup. My heart makes me wonder how much longer til you're coming back to take me away. My heart longs for you to fly right through the sky and take me to the place where I will never feel my heart break down again.

I had a really long day today.... I didn't do anything. I have a midterm tomorrow that I am not ready for. I stayed in bed all day. I mean all day. I woke to my alarm at 8 AM. I was supposed to go to work, but I called in and said that I had a midterm and needed to study so that I wouldn't be coming in. Then went back to sleep. Woke up at 9, 10, 11... then got out of bed to get my notes at 1PM. I had class at 4. I was going to study til 4.. I kept falling asleep in between notes, but I didn't care. I just kept sleeping... I set my alarm for 3:30 so I could go to class. It rang...didn't budge. Stayed in bed, I didn't even get up to eat or go to the bathroom. Finally at 7, I had to get up because I was supposed to meet with Jeanne to study for the midterm. In that time, 1PM-7PM, I got through my notes once. I ate a bagel and some chips, then went to meet up with Jeanne. Studied from 8-11:30 straight. Got through our notes together. Xeroxed what needed to be xeroxed.. then made my way back to Jae's to eat soba noodles (yum~ huh, kwansoo?)... Now kinda looking up possible ID's online.

I'm feeling a little down. I know why, but there's not really anything I can do about it except stop thinking about it. But, of course, I can't do that cuz I'm a drama mama. I need closure. Can't have it til I can talk to that person...

But I guess I shouldn't really be worried about things like that...I keep drowning myself in myself. I need to stop.

But little things make me happy:
Thanks Dan for the phone call. I really needed that... it was nice to talk to you. x)
Thanks Jae for feeding me. x) yum....
Thanks Alex and Kwan for putting up with my stupidity and for making me smile. Sorry that I'm so incredibly stupid.
Thanks Jeanne for studying with me. x) And listening to my nonsense too. We should celebrate together after it's all over. Good luck on your midterms girl! You can do it!

So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. (Col 2:6-7)