today..
crazy
eye-opening
gut-wrenching
heart-breaking
shocking
speechless
how could i have been so blind?
why didn't i try harder?
spent so much time on trivial things that don't matter now
still holding on to things that don't matter
i'm so selfish!
it hurts...
i shoulda..
i coulda...
but i didn't....
so little time
what do You mean by this?
lesson to be learned?
what now?
head throbbing
heart pounding
nothing else matters
need to pray....

Lord help me to surrender....