There are some people that I wish I could get to know, but it's hard because of the way that I approach people. People say that I'm intimidating. I guess I can be, but I don't mean to be. When I approach people, I really want them to feel like I'm genuinely interested in them. And I only approach people because I am. But if people don't respond to that, then I don't know what to do. I know that some people need more than just a smile and a big loud "hello," but I don't know what it is that I can do to get them to respond to me. I don't know why, but when people spark my interest, I really want to get to know them, and I want them to know me. I want to be real, but then, I guess I'm not. I try so hard to be happy and energetic all the time. It's quite draining, but then I've kinda put myself into this role. So I stay. There's more to me though...

Carroll came over tonight and we talked. It was really nice. I don't really get a chance to have deep and serious conversations with a lot of the people that I "know." It's always refreshing to talk to someone new. *thanks carroll* ^^ I wish it were that easy to talk with everyone.

I also put him to work. keke~ My wall is almost filled, thanks to Carroll's free and exploited labor. tee hee~ Come check it out~ I'd love the company!