so i've wasted my whole day...i was planning on being all productive and going to the library after awana prayer meeting.. but let me tell you what i did....

awana prayer meeting was at sylvia and isabel's. so afterwards, i went to say hello to luptuous. but i fell asleep there. and guess what time i woke up? close to 3. so i go home, and i was determined to be productive still. but guess what i did? i fooled around with my computer. at around 4:30 jae came over to fix my keyboard and mouse (thank you jae!!) so now it works (yay!) then, i was like, "ok.. NOW i'm going to be productive.." but it's now 6 and i have no idea what i've been doing for the past hour. T-T

i don't know what's wrong with me recently. there are so many things that i have to do, but i'm just sitting around doing nothing. it's not that i don't want to, but for some reason, i really can't get myself motivated. and it's only the 3rd week of school! what am i going to do when things get harder? xP i donno.. lately, i just feel really empty inside. i don't know what it is. or.. maybe i do know what it is, but too lazy to do anything about it. i find myself in the situation that i find myself in usually midsemeter. it worries me that everything's just begun, but i already feel like i've been here forever. the same feelings of shiftlessness, emptiness, lack of motivation... already... i don't know. i wish i could just shake it off.... i really want to be different this year. i know i say that every year.. but it really is my last year, you know? what am i going to do without berkeley??