i guess working gets me in the blogging mood. especially since i have nothing to do! dang.. it's only been 2 days since school started, and there's really nothing for me to do. *sigh* and now with luptuous workin with me, there will be less to do. haha... how funny...
so i've been doing more thinking about my futures... and it's really scary.. like.. i have to take LSAT classes, and i'm debating if i should, where i should, when i should.... it's so strange! up until college, i think life is so simple... you go from elementary to middle to high school. then you go to college, right? but what now? should i even bother wth law schooL? i don't know... it's so confusing! and it's just makin me stress about things that i would much rather not be stressing about. like how old i'm getting. x*( not a nice feeling. i wish there was some magic potion i could drink that could make my head all straight and things all ok. you know? how great would that be??? i wish i had more time to worry about the simpler things in life.. like God. and how to glorify Him. i guess getting back, i see how hard it is to focus only on God. even whn we weren't doing anything with church in Japan, i think we always had the reason why we were in japan in the back of our heads, so it was easy to keep Him and the people there in mind. but here, it's so much harder. i still haven't sat down and prayed yet. how sad. i made all these promises to pray for them, and i have yet to make a conscious effort to do it. i've been so bogged down with my own life--with LSATs, and classes, and financial things, and my future... xP it makes me remember the verse that i shared for devotions the last night i was there though.
But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
~Matthew 6:33-34
it says to seek Him and everything will be alright.. so c'mon haejin! seek God!!!
you'd think that as the years go by, i'd learn my lesson and it would be easier to seek Him. but as the days go by, it just gets harder and harder to get myself to do it. why? who knows? me and my stupid self just sitting around and worrying about everything, which just makes things worse. how horrid. xP i need to pray....
so i've been doing more thinking about my futures... and it's really scary.. like.. i have to take LSAT classes, and i'm debating if i should, where i should, when i should.... it's so strange! up until college, i think life is so simple... you go from elementary to middle to high school. then you go to college, right? but what now? should i even bother wth law schooL? i don't know... it's so confusing! and it's just makin me stress about things that i would much rather not be stressing about. like how old i'm getting. x*( not a nice feeling. i wish there was some magic potion i could drink that could make my head all straight and things all ok. you know? how great would that be??? i wish i had more time to worry about the simpler things in life.. like God. and how to glorify Him. i guess getting back, i see how hard it is to focus only on God. even whn we weren't doing anything with church in Japan, i think we always had the reason why we were in japan in the back of our heads, so it was easy to keep Him and the people there in mind. but here, it's so much harder. i still haven't sat down and prayed yet. how sad. i made all these promises to pray for them, and i have yet to make a conscious effort to do it. i've been so bogged down with my own life--with LSATs, and classes, and financial things, and my future... xP it makes me remember the verse that i shared for devotions the last night i was there though.
But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
~Matthew 6:33-34
it says to seek Him and everything will be alright.. so c'mon haejin! seek God!!!
you'd think that as the years go by, i'd learn my lesson and it would be easier to seek Him. but as the days go by, it just gets harder and harder to get myself to do it. why? who knows? me and my stupid self just sitting around and worrying about everything, which just makes things worse. how horrid. xP i need to pray....
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