berkeley represents all of my stress.. all of my heartaches... school, which is stress... work, which is boring... it represents the most difficult times of my life. yet.... it also represents all the growth that i've experienced.. all the people that i've been blessed enough to meet.. all the "study breaks" that were so memorable.. it's all of the best times of my life as well.

in all of that, i should be so thankful, but i find myself getting more and more bitter as the days go by. i don't quite know what it is that makes me feel this way, but i can feel my heart hardening. i just don't care as much as i used to..... in all things.. i feel like i've lost the compassion that drove me. the heart to keep on goin, no matter how hard it was, is no longer there. in all things, i find it's easier to just give up....

yesterday's message was about passion for God. i'm so lacking that. but i'm not only lacking a passion for God, but i'm lacking a passion for life. i feel like i've lost the motivation for everything in my life. how depressing, huh? sorry.. i'll stop depressing y'all...

so how 'bout them lakers?