i guess finals have been keepin me busy... which is a good thing, right? keke.. i'm almost done~! just one more to go. i had all these pprs and finals before finals week even started, so i only have one left.. but at least i get to go home early, yipee~~

things have been pretty... difficult. in all aspects of my life, i find myself struggling to find out who i am.. struggling to find out what it is that God wants me to do. it's so hard to obey sometimes. have you ever wanted something to work out sooooo badly that you don't listen to anything anyone says, you don't listen to your heart.. and you just keep on trying? i was doing that for a while.. it took so much of my energy.. completely drained me emotionally, physcially, spiritually. and now... here i am--left with the same conclusion that i had tried to deny. dang. i wish i could just let go sometimes.....

other than that, things are winding down.. school is almost over, and church is starting over. it was weird... in a good way though. our new church is very homey--so small it makes it seem that much more family-like. it was nice having service in the morning in our own building.. i'm getting ready to go home for a few days.. then come back to work.. xP i still haven't finished my support letters.. (boo hoo!) so hopefully i can get that done while i'm at home or something!! grr!!

I WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!!!!