i was reading andy's blog.. and he commented about how we always realize things in retrospect.. as i was reading it, i was like "omg, yeah.. yeah... omg~ so true!!" i'm always doing that.. like looking back and regretting a lot of the things that i did or didn't do.. xP sheesh~ what is wrong with me... it's so easy to look after the fact and say, "dang, that drama wasn't that bad.. i just shoulda ____." or " gosh~ i'm so glad that this happened because i learned so much from it..." but in the moment.. it's so easy to lose your cool and ask questions like, "why God, why? why did you make me this way..? what do you want from me?" and then i realize what i'm saying, and who i'm speaking to.. xP hehe, it reminds me of the visual that sylvia gave us: it's like a little pot shaking its fist at the potter and complaining and asking "why?!" ridiculous, huh? haha, but that's me.. in the moment....
my friend and i were chatting and he was talking about that one simpson's where they do the chili cookoff and homer goes kinda nutso and he's desperately searching for his soulmate. he was saying that this episode made him feel so sad and alone because homer is so desperate.. and at first i was laughing but then i thought about it.. it's true.. his soulmate (who ends up being marge) was always there, but homer loses his way and starts looking for something else to be his soulmate.. in the process, he gets so hopeless and feels so alone and clueless.. he gets so lost. he even thinks that his soulmate is a fox at some point (i think..) anywho.. in the end he comes back to marge, who is and has always been his soulmate. and i was thinkin about it.. that's the way i am.. i'm always losing my way, and when i'm lost, i feel soo alone and so lost and hopeless. but if i just think about the end, i'm always going to find my soulmate.. i'm always going to go back to Him because He's always pursuing after my heart.. even when i'm feeling so far from Him, i find myself going back to Him. i need to concentrate more on the end and not worry so much about in the moment. to have an eternal perspective... that's what i need to do now. i have to stop living in the moment.. and live looking towards the end. x) cuz the ending is such a good story! keke.. you know.. like when you're watching a movie that you've already seen, and you know what's gonna happen in the end, and you're like, waiting and waiting for that happily ever after.. x) i should live expecting and hopeful that the ending of my story is gonna be sooo great~ cuz Jesus is gonna come and swoop me~! hehe~ and i shouldn't be swamped by worries of tomorrow because the ending is the same.. i'm going to find my soulmate.. keke~ in the end, God's gonna always be there cuz He's always been there. so even though sometimes, "in the moment" might seem like forever, it's gonna be ok, cuz the end's gonna be all that much more longer and greater!
why do i sway? i can't face a day without you. my heart drifts away, but Your love remains always true. as i'm sending away, on the rivers of time, your love will carry me through the storms in my life. you're all i need, when the world is closing in. when my strength is running thin. when i'm lost in the storm. you're all i need. there's no need to look anywhere, there's nothing that can compare to the love that you give, cuz you're all i need. sometimes i wait until i can't take anymore. you show me the way, you help me survive to the shore. when i'm drifting away on the angry tides, i cast out my anchor unto the sea of your love. you're all i need, when the world is closing in. when my strength is running thin. when i'm lost in the storm. you're all i need. there's no need to look anywhere, there's nothing that can compare to the love that you give, cuz you're all i need. you're all i need. you're all that i want. nothing in this world could give me more.
dear Lord, help me to remember that you're all i need!!
my friend and i were chatting and he was talking about that one simpson's where they do the chili cookoff and homer goes kinda nutso and he's desperately searching for his soulmate. he was saying that this episode made him feel so sad and alone because homer is so desperate.. and at first i was laughing but then i thought about it.. it's true.. his soulmate (who ends up being marge) was always there, but homer loses his way and starts looking for something else to be his soulmate.. in the process, he gets so hopeless and feels so alone and clueless.. he gets so lost. he even thinks that his soulmate is a fox at some point (i think..) anywho.. in the end he comes back to marge, who is and has always been his soulmate. and i was thinkin about it.. that's the way i am.. i'm always losing my way, and when i'm lost, i feel soo alone and so lost and hopeless. but if i just think about the end, i'm always going to find my soulmate.. i'm always going to go back to Him because He's always pursuing after my heart.. even when i'm feeling so far from Him, i find myself going back to Him. i need to concentrate more on the end and not worry so much about in the moment. to have an eternal perspective... that's what i need to do now. i have to stop living in the moment.. and live looking towards the end. x) cuz the ending is such a good story! keke.. you know.. like when you're watching a movie that you've already seen, and you know what's gonna happen in the end, and you're like, waiting and waiting for that happily ever after.. x) i should live expecting and hopeful that the ending of my story is gonna be sooo great~ cuz Jesus is gonna come and swoop me~! hehe~ and i shouldn't be swamped by worries of tomorrow because the ending is the same.. i'm going to find my soulmate.. keke~ in the end, God's gonna always be there cuz He's always been there. so even though sometimes, "in the moment" might seem like forever, it's gonna be ok, cuz the end's gonna be all that much more longer and greater!
why do i sway? i can't face a day without you. my heart drifts away, but Your love remains always true. as i'm sending away, on the rivers of time, your love will carry me through the storms in my life. you're all i need, when the world is closing in. when my strength is running thin. when i'm lost in the storm. you're all i need. there's no need to look anywhere, there's nothing that can compare to the love that you give, cuz you're all i need. sometimes i wait until i can't take anymore. you show me the way, you help me survive to the shore. when i'm drifting away on the angry tides, i cast out my anchor unto the sea of your love. you're all i need, when the world is closing in. when my strength is running thin. when i'm lost in the storm. you're all i need. there's no need to look anywhere, there's nothing that can compare to the love that you give, cuz you're all i need. you're all i need. you're all that i want. nothing in this world could give me more.
dear Lord, help me to remember that you're all i need!!
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