do you want to be a spiritual squash or a spiritual oak?
that was our lesson today..although i may not look like much now, and although i may struggle so much with not being where i want to be, i'm going to wait for God to keep working in me first. only then can He do great things through me.. right? i think it's so easy for us, especially now, to think that we can do things on our own. that's what we're taught from day one. we're taught that if we work hard, then we'll achieve our goals, no matter how impossible that may seem. but that's so opposite when it comes to being a Christian. there's NO way you can earn the grace that God has graciously given to us. and by us trying still to win His favor just shows that we don't think that His grace was good enough for us. i always try so hard to do the right things. i get so lost in trying to impact other people in my life. i'm so arrogant. what makes me so much greater than anyone else? i'm not a great person, i know that.. but i guess i spend so much time trying to convince myself and those around me that i'm a good person.. that's why i'm so glad that God is so good. almighty infinite Father, faithfully loving Your own. Here in the weakness You find us, falling before Your throne. Oh~ we're falling before Your throne. You are the One that we praise. You are the One we adore. You give the healing and grace our hearts always hunger for. Oh~ our hearts always hunger for. because only He can fill that empty void in my heart. and only He has proven how much He loves me and sent His only Son to die for the sins that i've committed. who else would do that? if He can do that, i should be able to wait for him. i gotta wait for His time.. because my timing always stinks! so i will wait to become the oak. i will be patient even when it seems so impossible for God to be able to do anything with me. i will wait for His time. i am imperfect now. but God's not through with me yet. even when it seems like i can't make it through.. i'm so secure, You're here with me. You stay the same, your love remains here in my heart. So close, i believe you're holding me now in your hands, i belong, you'll never let me go! all along you were beside me even when i couldn't tell. through the years you show me more of You, More of YOU! so now, Lord I offer my life to You. Everything I've been through use it for Your glory. Lord I offer my days to You, lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifce. Lord I offer you my life! because I WANT TO BE A SPIRITUAL OAK!