saturday, we celebrated eugene's 24th. it was very interesting.. it involved some greek food, a belly-dancer, a dollar bill, and an embarrassed (yet very cooperative) eugene standing up on a chair, hahaha~ don't worry, pictures (and maybe a video clip) to come~

i am so screwed this week. *sigh* 15 page ppr due by friday and i'm already behind in 2 of my 5 classes.............. is the law review thing even worth it?? :(

forecast: miserably long days at the library all week long..

i've come to a conclusion: la ppl are dumb. -__-;; really, it's amazing what intellectual (maybe that's where i'm assuming too much) law students will talk about during class. (ie: justin timberlake's new restaurant)...

i don't like it here. someone please save me~ why can we only transfer once? that doesn't make any sense....

home is.. home. *sigh* i'm sad tho.. my poor kitties are so attn deprived b/c my dad made me put them in a room in the back behind the garage, so they don't get to see many humans. x( after constant attn, it's really taking a toll on poor fattie (aka attn whore) she goes crazy when i go back there to visit. i miss sleeping with them too. x( mean parents....

i'm tired.. and i've taken a 2.5 hr break so far.. i should study. (haha, blah blah..)

really tho.. this semester doesn't look like it will be too fun.

on the other hand, me and kevin signed up for the gym yesterday. LA Fitness to be exact.. maybe since i'll be paying for it, i'll actually use it b/c i'm so stingy like that. we'll see how long i care.. haha~

*sigh* i have another class at 6 pm. but after that, i get to see lila today~ yay! so i'll just suffer through 6 more hours until then.

*sigh*

shut up haejin, and stop complaining.
thank you.. i needed that.

(no, i'm not going crazy, and i'm not talking to myself. i'm writing to myself.)

yesterday, i drove up to spectrum to go on a date with kevin. x) it was so
nice. hehe~ we watched bourne supremacy, had coldstone icecream,
and had dinner at thaifoon. after that we went to the beach. it was kinda
random how we got to the beach tho.. hehe~ we went to the gas station and
we asked some random person if they knew if there was a beach around. he
said it was 5 miles away, and gave us directions. after driving for almost
10 miles, kevin pulls over.. haha, he suggests we walk around for a bit,
so we do, and *BAM* there's this gorgeous beach.. hehe x) the drive home
sucked really hard b/c i kept falling asleep... xP

today is my last day here. my dad told me to be ready to leave and have
everything packed by the time he comes at 6pm. i get off work at 2:30pm.
i haven't started packing yet.. i don't even have any boxes yet. hehe, looks
like my dad's gonna be yelling.....

wat a weekend...

my bf's back! yay!! hehe, it was so good to see him again... hehehe~ yay!
the wedding was.. strange.. everyone around me was crying and sniffling and i was just sitting there thinking, "this is too weird!" on the other hand.. it was a very sweet wedding. it's weddings like these that makes me want to get married. then i leave the wedding and i'm like, "no i don't.." haha~ but while i'm there i do want to get married. it's so awesome to be at a Christian wedding.. it really does make a big difference.. the dancing was fun. hahah~ i think i was the only one having so much fun.. hehe~ i haven't danced in a long time.. it was nice to get it all out. my body was so sore the next day..

now i'm at work.. i haven't gotten much work done tho.. haha~ my tummy hoits...

2 more days here in beautiful san diego...

i'm bored again...

after work i really don't have much to do. i guess i could start packing and cleaning the apt, but that's not fun. i've run out of books to read and watching the movies i have isn't as fun as it used to be. i used to exercise to kill the time, but that's getting old very fast.

someone play with me!

new obsession of the moment: watching country music videos.

i don't know what it is about these days that makes me want to listen to country music. so strange...

i couldn't fall asleep last night. xP so i woke up really late for work today. (45 mins late..) oops.. oh well. i'm almost done here anyway. x) haha~

my niece is SO cute! these days, she's really happy (unless she's hungry or sleepy -- she is definitely a Chung) and even smiles at me. x) it's a big improvement from crying every time i got near her.. xP

i was at loyola from 11:30am ~ 6pm. it was a long day... xP but i like the campus.. hopefully, i continue liking the campus.. we'll see..

while i was at loyola tho, i realized imma have to work my butt of this year to do well. i don't know how i got in~ all the other transfer students were at least top 10%.... haha, and me... i was nowhere near that. that means that they are ready to kill themselves over here too.. :( boo.. and i thought i had a good chance.. *sigh* looks like i'm going to have to really kill myself...

i don't want to be here....

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE....

i went to the beach yesterday.. and as soon as i got there, i left. hahaha~ we got there a little too late. but it was nice to see hyewon again. x) poor girl is so tired/jet-lagging.. yet still so busy.. hehe, some things never change..

doode.. i'm so tired. i'm supposed to have left work already, but i'm still here!! ahhh!!

blah.. i just missed blogging, that's all.

some pics from my trip to berkeley last may:

from alcatraz


from alcatraz at night


i thought this was perty.. x)

but it came out fuzzy again! x(

hehe, i made him do this:

i need another book to read.....

it's been a nice couple of few days. i haven't had time to relax like this in a loooong while. i basically just go to work, which isn't bad. just 4 hours out of my day. come home, then do nothing. we'll see how long i go before exploding out of boredom. we know how dangerous it is for me to be bored.. haha~ well at least jae does. ahaha~

other than that, my life has been a dull lull, if that makes any sense. ppl keep asking me if i'm nervous/excited/anxious to start @ loyola.. honestly.. no. i haven't thought about it much after i decided to transfer. i still have about a gazillion things to do, but u know me.. procrastinator til the end.

doode, i'm bored. someone lend me a book! or even better.. come play with me!!!

Currently Reading: Children of the Mind
by Orson Scott Card
"Let me tell you the most beautiful story I know.
A man was given a dog, which he loved very much.
The dog went with him everywhere,
but the man could not teach it to do anything useful.
The dog would not fetch or point,
it would not race or protect or stand watch.
Instead the dog sat near him and regarded him,
always with the same inscrutable expression.
'That's not a dog, it's a wolf,' said the man's wife.
'He alone is faithful to me,' said the man,
and his wife never discussed it with him again.
One day the man took his dog with him into his private airplane
and as they flew over high winter mountains,
the engines failed
and the airplane was torn to shreds among the trees.
The man lay bleeding,
his belly torn open by blades of sheared metal,
steam rising from his organs in the cold air,
but all he could think of was his faithful dog.
Was he alive? Was he hurt?
Imagine his relief when the dog came padding up
and regarded him with that same steady gaze.
After an hour, the dog nosed the man's gaping abdomen,
then began pulling out intestines and spleen and liver
and gnawing on them,
all the while studying the man's face.
'Thank God,' said the man.
'At least one of use will not starve.'"
from The God Whispers of Han Qing-jao


so after being home this weekend, i can't help but think that i totally made the wrong decision. i'm not ready to live at home. in fact, i don't think i ever will be..

then it made me think.. i need to stop running away from home. how will i ever learn to love my family when i choose to avoid them? of course i fought with every member of my household at least once. (remember, it's only been a weekend). but with some of my family members.. it was an argument more than it was me trying to look out for them. of course i'm speaking of my little sister. was i really that dumb when i was younger? seriously, every time my parents or my older sister told me not to do something and i went and did it anyway.. it ALWAYS ended up badly. i hope that doesn't happen to her. i hope she comes out of all this ok, but i also hope she realizes that i only mean the best. xP i guess i coulda been nicer about it.. but honestly. i just don't know how. i've never been taught to be nice to my family. i can be nice to strangers.. but to my family, i can't. it's something that i've never been quite proud of.. but something that i can't hide. anyone who has seen my family and i interact can attest to how mean we are to each other. why? i don't know... that's how it's always been. i can't really remember a time when it was ever different.

it's going to be a tumultuous 2 years.

God please don't let me go.